lil something that i just had to write today jus to get it off my mind and to try to put into words what some of us feel sometimes when we try to help someone and get burnt in the process when they themselves do nothin...its raw so it hardly rhymes and stuff..very diff from my previous material but tell me what you think!
Fight(soldier)
Verse1 You look at me all jaded Defeated and bruised you look to me for comfort But all I can do is watch So close I can feel you but you’re just out of reach
Verse2 Tried fighting your battle with you Seemed like I was da only one takin the shots You could’ve said anything yeah But I was left hangin there trying to shield your pain
Pre-Chorus I can’t help you no more, If u ain’t gonna close the door Tell them no more Gotta stand your ground
Chorus You gotta take the stand, Do what’s right and amend Stand up soldier and fight, follow da guiding light Do whatever it takes babe, no matter if your heart breaks You gotta set youself free, you’ll never be lonely
Verse3 Why you so scared to release All the pressure and the emotions that you feel, Just like edges of a sword Use words for damage; make ‘em listen till you’re heard
Verse4 And when words fail you Don’t you dare give up, theres so much more u can do Your life’s on da line soldier When da war’s over, its gonna be either them or you
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Oct. 30th, 2006 @ 11:41 pm
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School sucks with mid-terms in the air i'm sitting, fretting, tearing off ma hair and all i wanted was a simple kinda student life the one with easy A's, B's and a social life
so why is it hard if everyone makes it seem so easy are they putting on a facade or is it jus the loser me still trying so hard to be on top of it all, doin fine but sometimes it feels like that will never be mine
I wish i had my very own hot female stalker.
work is awesome so far.
i need a REAL life.Current Mood:  blah Current Music: It Ends Tonight- AAR
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WOOHOO!!! OK i finally got to go back home and meet the folks again after almost 3 years! And i saw ma home country after 5 years since i last dropped by in 2001. So here is what it was like....
I left on the 1st of August Canadian and reached Nepal on the 3rd Nepal... My mom cried as usual when she saw me..later she told me that she was standing on the porch looking at the planes to see that mine had landed..she was anxious as mine was delayed and instead of landing at 6.45am in da morn, i landed at 8pm.. my dad and bro were waiting for me at the airport..dad and i took a cab back home while ma bro was on his bike, showin off...funny how he is younger and he gets to have a friggin bike..sigh..
 My Side of Town
 My side of Town 2
First trip was to Pokhara..Pokhara valley is a really sweeet place for tourists and locals alike..its a laid-back kinda place..a shark contrast to Kathmandu Valley, the Capitol of Nepal...Pokhara is famous for its lakes and tourist resorts...apparently s being torn apart by the forces for the ground water that flows into the numerous lakes...i was especially excited about this trip 'cuz not only was i going to pokhara for the first time in ma life, i was going to meet my childhood friends there as well!! Here are some pics...
 Phewa Taal...Lake Phewa..this is the lake where people go to kayak and boat...no electric boats are allowed here and apparently, the waters can get infested by a certain type of floating plant that threatens the fish species..so they have to do regular maintainance...there is also a path from somewhere across to a stupa ontop of the hill..more on that later...
 If you take a boat to the middle of the lake, you'll see a temple in da middle, only accessible by boat..this is the real temple itself...pretty cool..
 Cousin, Sister and Me at the Temple in da middle of the lake...
 On the way to Davis Falls in Pokhara...
 Davis Falls
 Begnas Taal..Begnas Lake..a smaller lake more famous for the fishes..you can get them at the few cafe-style places set up..really nice...
 Begnas Taal
 The stupa i told you about earlier..its on top of a hill which tooks us about 2 hours to hike up..
 The Hike Up 1
 The Hike Up 2
 The Hike Up 3
 Phewa Taal-- A view from the top
 My favourite Picture.. A view from the kingdom of heaven...taken from the Stupa..
 Childhood friends
 View on the way back 1
 View on the way back 2-- View of the mountains in the distance...
 Mountains early in the Morning
Ok..thats all i have time for now..check back real soon for the other part! psst:will get the image size fixed real soon..real nice pics if u wanna grab them @ good resolution tho.. |
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Sep. 21st, 2006 @ 10:49 am
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This weekend was awesome!!! we (roomie and me) got a sweet travel deal..niagara, wonderland and thousand islands, 3 days and 2 nights for $207(base price was 160 inclusive of one breakfast and 2 night's accomodation, and wonderland trip was 33 while thousand island tour was 14)...
so first day we embarked to the thousand islands..i've never been there before so i was looking forward to the experience..we reached there in about two hours..we got on this awesome ferry(top deck btw) and started clicking pictures of cool islands with nice looking houses..there was also the world's shortest international bridge as well..i think it spanned about 3m or so..cool..and then we saw the other side of the st.laurent river..the us side..we saw da bilionaire strip where billionaires stay apparently..saw more nice islands and soon the hour was over..lunch time..nice chinese buffet at Kingston and soon it was time to move along to the next destination..
 1000 Island
 World's Smallest Internationl Bridge
 Some cool looking place on an island with a friggin US customs office
in the evening, we got to Niagara falls..this would be my third time there..i expected the same things but to my surprise,there was a cool NEW FERRIS WHEEL!! I had to get on...so after meeting a friend from brock uni, the three of us(roomie,friend,me) went for a ride on the ferris wheel..awesomeview..my first time on the ferris wheel btw..so was a BLAST!! After a few more moments together, my friend had to leave since she had a ride to catch..my roomie and i then checked in at the hotel afterwhich, we went around exploring and got some Boston Pizza in our stomachs..i liked the atmosphere in there..was really cool..we then rested..
 Ferris Wheel!!
 The Falls
 The Falls and Casinoes in the USA
 Roomie and me high in the Ferris Wheel
 Friend and me chilling in a Ferris wheel compartment
Next day, was a WHOLE FRIGGIN DAY AT WONDERLAND!!! from 10.30am to 11pm..it was ma 4th time there and i was kinda done and bored by the time the clock struck 5..the major highlights were the new rides that i hadn't done yet(psyclone,italian job,shock wave etc), the stunt show and the canada day firework display at night...o btw..we are so damn cheap people..we tried to save money on food by buyin doritos from 7-eleven near the hotel that morning and having that for lunch..bleah...BAD IDEA!! My stomach wasn't feeling too good that day especially after the churning sensation from the rides we did..bad experience...but the foot-long hot dog was awesome at night tho..a bit too pricy but i thot that it was worth it..
 A taste of the Rides in Wonderland
 Stunt show(nothing much to see here unfortunately)
 Fireworks!!
Final day started awesome with a breakfast buffet..and then it was off to the CN tower and city hall...i believe scenes from Resident Evil 2 were shot there..awesome place..but i have been to downtown toronto countless times so wasn't really an eye opener...following that, we went to pacific mall..some famous chinese mall in TO..i was expecting really cheap stuff but lo and behold..friggin chinese peeps were tryin to rip ppl off or somehting..a shirt cost like 95 friggin bucks!! And man were the shop keepers suffering from severe pre-menstural syndrome...rude indeed..seemd like they did not want customers in their shope or something..wadeva..
then we headed back to Ottawa and ma sweet weekend came to an end...
Hope everyone else's was great as well! I know Neil's was busy!Rest well!! |
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These thoughts, always within me, Constant and loud, they’re so heavy I try to block them out but I just can’t Consumed by them, I get tormented and bent Sometimes I just close my eyes And try to vision the stillness of silence But with every failed attempt, I realize To deny them, doesn’t promise their absence
Its like a million voices all whispering at once, Trying to say something but I am not listening So they all begin to scream out loud And I lose myself and then its my turn to shout “ stop this madness, whats going on? All I want is for ya’ll to be gone So get out of here leave me alone, I just need some time on my own!”
But this shit don’t work, its useless All I hear are more words and abuses Every single line, louder then before I don’t even feel my conscious self no more So I turn out the lights and lay in bed Hoping when I wake up, everything’s gone from my head But I know...that they’ll be resting too Cuz tomorrow is a new day, they gots some more to do
And I, Just wanna be alone Leave me here, here on my own I need some space to breathe Leave, get out of my mind Yeah I just wanna find A place that I can be… me
So stop, telling me just what to do You know I don’t give a damn about you You can say whatever you wanna say, But I’ll be laughin at you at the end of the day So turn down the bickering, dull down the noise All I want to be hearing is the sound of my voice Every step I take is gonna be all mine No worries here people, I’ll be just fine
Leave this stupid charade and let it all go I see through everything, your whole damn show You tried to blind me with the colours, the lights But I guess you failed cuz I’m one who fights I’m breaking down your act piece by piece A whole lotta drama performing a slow striptease Then in the end, its you that I’ll find The puppeteer behind it all, the mastermind
You wanna be the one to always be there tell me What to do, where I go and who I see What actions to take and which promises to make Whose words to speak and what to put at stake But I cant have none of that shit no more You gonna have to pack you things and head for the door Can’t be no one making my moves for me I want freedom of choice, expression of individuality
And I, Just wanna be alone Leave me here, here on my own I need some space to breathe Leave, get out of my mind Yeah I just wanna find A place that I can be… me
One voice still blaring out in dissonance The sound so loud it blurs my conscience But to whom does this voice belong? Holy shit … its really been me all along…
Apr. 27th, 2006 @ 10:33 pm
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The day is starting out REALLLY BAD! Friggin PRIMUS RIPPED ME OFF!!
Apr. 4th, 2006 @ 11:29 am
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I think i love her..


Mar. 22nd, 2006 @ 12:15 am
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| » A couple of e-mails |
Funny how i opened up ma e-mail today and there were two different e-mails from two different peeps..each e-mail contained a poem/stanzas ..one for dad and one for women eg:moms...they kinda spoke to me so here they are..you can tell how much i am anticipating ma trip back to nepal..now..if only there were poems in ma e-mail for siblings...hmm..
For Dad: When you were 8 years old, your dad handed you an ice cream. You thanked him by dripping it all over your lap.
When you were 9 years old, he paid for piano lessons. You thanked him by never even bothering to practice.
When you were 10 years old he drove you all day, from soccer to gymnastic to one birthday party after another. You thanked him by jumping out of the car and never looking back.
When you were 11 years old, he took you and your friends to the movies. You thanked him by asking to sit in a different row.
When you were 12 years old, he warned you not to watch certain TV shows. You thanked him by waiting until he left the house.
When you were 13, he suggested a haircut that was becoming. You thanked him by telling him he had no taste.
When you were 14, he paid for a month away at summer camp. You thanked him by forgetting to write a single letter.
When you were 15, he came home from work, looking for a hug. You thanked him by having your bedroom door locked.
When you were 16, he taught you how to drive his car. You thanked him by taking it every chance you could.
When you were 17, he was expecting an important call. You thanked him by being on the phone all night.
When you were 18, he cried at your high school graduation. You thanked him by staying out partying until dawn.
When you were 19, he paid for your college tuition,drove you to campus carried your bags. You thanked him by saying good-bye outside the dorm so you wouldn't be embarrassed in front of your friends.
When you were 25, he helped to pay for your wedding, and he cried and told you how deeply he loved you. You thanked him by moving halfway across the country.
When you were 50, he fell ill and needed you to take care of him. You thanked him by reading about the burden parents become to their children.
For Mom:
A little boy asked his mother, "Why are you crying?" "Because I'm a woman," she told him.
"I don't understand," he said. His Mom just hugged him and said, "And you never will."
Later the little boy asked his father, "Why does mother seem to cry for no reason?"
"All women cry for no reason," was all his dad could say.
The little boy grew up and became a man, still wondering why women cry.
Finally he put in a call to God. When God got on the phone, he asked, "God, why do women cry so easily?" God said:
"When I made the woman she had to be special.
I made her shoulders strong enough to carry the weight of the world,
yet gentle enough to give comfort.
I gave her an inner strength to endure childbirth and the rejection that many times comes from her children.
I gave her a hardness that allows her to keep going when everyone else gives up, and take care of her family through sickness and fatigue without complaining.
I gave her the sensitivity to love her children under any and all circumstances, even when her child has hurt her very badly.
I gave her strength to carry her husband through his faults and fashioned her from his rib to protect his heart.
I gave her wisdom to know that a good husband never hurts his wife, but sometimes tests her strengths and her resolve to stand beside him unfalteringly.
And finally, I gave her a tear to shed. This is hers exclusively to use whenever it is needed."
"You see my son," said God, "the beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, the figure that she carries, or the way she combs her hair.
The beauty of a woman must be seen in her eyes, because that is the doorway to her heart - the place where love resides."
SO love ur parents! Like i do! ^^ ( ok enough of acting cute..l8ers)
Mar. 21st, 2006 @ 09:18 pm
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i'm looking forward to going back to nepal for a nice holiday with family:)
Mar. 17th, 2006 @ 11:27 pm
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And so i am 19 today..i am infront of ma computer in ma boxers and T-shirt taking in the nasty smell of ma feet..juz got back from school..test tmr..suffered 3 midterms and its been a helluva week,,pie day tmr means i'll be running around like a crazy monkey too..so in all this madness, i present you something i am working on...
These thoughts, always within me, Constant and loud, they’re so heavy I try to block them out but I just can’t Consumed by them, I get tormented and bent Sometimes I just close my eyes And try to vision the stillness of silence But with every failed attempt, I realize To deny them, doesn’t promise their absence
Its like a million voices all whispering at once, Trying to say something but I am not listening So they all begin to scream out loud And I lose myself and then its my turn to shout “ stop this madness, whats going on? All I want is for ya’ll to be gone So get out of here leave me alone, I just need some time on my own!”
But this shit don’t work, its useless All I hear are more words and abuses Every single line, louder then before I don’t even feel my conscious self no more So I turn out the lights and lay in bed Hoping when I wake up, everything’s gone from my head But I know...that they’ll be resting too Cuz tomorrow is a new day, they gots some more to do
And I, Just wanna be alone Leave me here here on my own I need some space to breathe Please, get out of my mind Yeah I just wanna find A place that I can be… me
So stop, telling me just what to do You know I don’t give a damn about you You can say whatever you wanna say, But I’ll be laughin at you at the end of the day So turn down the bickering, dull down the noise All I want to be hearing is the sound of my voice
I'll be writing more and polishing it up..till then i hope everyone else is awesome..ciao!
Mar. 3rd, 2006 @ 12:19 am
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 BLUES are motivated by INTIMACY, seek opportunities
to genuinely connect with others, and need to
be appreciated. They do everything with
quality and are devoted and loyal friends and
employers/employees. Whatever or whomever
they commit to are their sole (and soul)
focus. They love to serve and will give
freely of themselves in order to nurture
others lives.
BLUES, however, do need to be understood. They have
distinct preferences and occasionally the
somewhat controlling (but always fair)
personality of a confident leader. Their code
of ethics is remarkably strong and they
expect others to live honest, committed lives
as well. They enjoy sharing meaningful
moments in conversation as well as
remembering special life events (i.e.,
birthdays and anniversaries). BLUES are
dependable, thoughtful, nurturing, and can
also be self-righteous, a bit worry-prone,
and emotionally intense. They are like
sainted pit-bulls who never let go of
something once they are committed. When you
deal with a BLUE, be sincere, make an effort
to truly understand them, and truly
appreciate them.
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Feb. 7th, 2006 @ 12:47 am
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| Your Life Path Number is 4 |  Your purpose in life is to build your vision.
You are practical and responsible. You work hard, knowing that there are no shortcuts in life. You work for a better life for yourself and those you love, but you are not an idealist. Trustworthy and honest, you also demonstrate great courage. People can count on you.
In love, you are a loyal and committed partner. You are the ideal spouse.
You don't give up easily, and sometimes you can be too stubborn and unwilling to change. You also can be too conservative at times. You sometime miss out on good opportunities. Also remember that not everyone can work as hard as you, as disappointing as that is! |
Jan. 9th, 2006 @ 10:53 pm
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So here i am in da new year looking forward to a fresh new beginnin all fresh from the holidays.. ready to take on all da courses that i am takin this year..hope they turn out awesome..Before we get to that lemme wish everyone a HAPPY NEW YEAR!!
New years and x-mas was great this year. I left for toronto on the 23 and i reached there at night. I then caught a bus to Hamilton and i had sushi dinner that night. After that sumptous dinner consisting of ma favourite "Spider Maki" and some other japanese food, we headed to the Bubbletea place called Teahut..met some peeps from ma previous sch there and kinda had fun juz talkin and catchin up with peeps..
Following night, met up with more ex-schoolmates and then had dinner and went to do some karaoke-ing..was awesome since i hadn't done it in 2 years..i strained ma voice but who cares..i had fun!! Muahahahaha...and yeah i did sing alot..ALOT!..a muahahaha is in order but i shall reserve it for something greater later..On this night might i add..ma friends were s'posed ta come from Oshawa and we were s'posed to meet up at ma friends place..however we had forgotten about that since we were havin so much fun at da Karaoke place till 5am in da morni..later we went back home to ma friends place to find all the friends from Oshawa TRASHED! Yup yup..they had bought a big bottle of Jack Daniels so we cld all drink but seein that we were not there, they devoured the bottle themselves!! HAHAHAHAHA..that was da funniest sight ever..to see them all trashed..I was standing behind ma friend after enterin thru the door and ma freind was askin wad had happened and ma other friends were like "where is rahul..i want to see him..where is he?"...i forgot to mention that da house was dark at 5am in da mornin and so..apparently...all they could see behind the friend i was standing behind, was ma set of teeth! LOL!!! I popped out from behind ma friend and said hi and all of them screamed..apparently i had lost alot of weight..hmm..
Da next day was X-mas and we went shopping to buys food-stuff cuz we had an awesome dinner planned..we were going to make momo..which are like dumplings..so went and bought 6pounds of minced pork and we made tons tons and tons of mom for a house of 10...man it tasted sooooo goood....no kidding..we even had a vanilla x-mas log cake to cut and eat....
That night was spent packin and stuff cuz we were gonna leave for Toronto in da morning to catch the infamous Boxin-day sale T.DOT Style!! Da next mornin we left our bags and stuff at ma friends place in toronto and we went to eaton mall..some of ma friends had stayed behind in hamilton to do shoppin hamilton-style..o and at this point i can say that we did pass by the crime scene where the 15 yearold girl had been shot some moments before that day...we were still in da mall when that happened tho..phew...ermm so yeah..we met up with the hamilton friends and we had chinese hot pot dinner that night..my was it messy..but fun fun fun... Some of ma friends went back to Oshawa that very night but some of us stayed over at ma friends place in Toronto to do more shoppin da day after...
Next morning we did more shoppin at Scarborough Town center..lol..that was only after everyone woke up at around 3 and we had lunch/dinner at another bubbletea place in toronot..by the time we were done, it was 5!! Lol..so anyways..looooong subway ride to STC and back to ma friends place..that nite the rest of us took da last train to oshawa as well and slept...
Next mornin was kinda boring cuz everyone was asleep...we went out to eat chinese buffet tho and was awesome..every day, leading to the 31st was awesome..with tons of things to do in da house..playing with da cat..playin computer games..jammin in da basement and clubbin in da basement..IT WAS A HUGE HOUSE!!!! And on the 30th itself we did more shoppin for food-stuff cuz we had another major nepalese dinner planned on the night of the 31st to usher into the new year with style..haha..so on the 31st we made tons of food..i'll insert the pictures so that you guys can see..but man da food was awesome no doubt..proper food liek taht is worth waiting for i tell you....and at midnite, we opened up bottles of blue and canadian and counted down from 10 to 1 and sang a lame version of "sud lang sine"..lol..and mor card games followed and a lil bit of clubbin in da basement which was now named "Da Underground" bye me..lol..
I left the mornin after with some other who were all goin back home for school..I went back to toronto and slept at a friends place in the U of T campus..that same day tho i had met another friend from ex-school and we had gone for more food..thai style this time..and i did see a Nepalese resteraunt!! Woohoo!! But we din go in cuz i saw da menu from outside and i am ashamed to say taht da food was overpriced..haha..so anyways, the morning after, ma friends left to go back to hamilton and i did some walkin around while waiting to meet up anoter ex-schoolmate..she kinda made it but we managed a quick lunch before i caught the subway to finch station from where i got a ride back to ottawa..
SWEET HOLIDAY!!!! here it goes...MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!
Hope everyone's holidays were as awesome..all da best this new year and all da best this semester..
Jan. 5th, 2006 @ 11:39 am
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Hahaha..so here i am again after a looooong while cuz i felt like that i had something funny to report. I was in a lab studyin and i suddenly wanted to go and refill ma waterbottle..well not really 'suddenly'...but anyways, i was thinkin abt alot of things so ma body was in 'auto-pilot' mode and it was directing itself towards the water cooler. Then i wanted to 'suddenly' clean ma bottle first in da washroom and so i,still in auto-pilot mode,did what i usually do...juz push the yellow door in with ma right arm and walk in...havin done that i saw a girl standing infront of the mirror!! I let out a silent 'ooops' and the girl looked at me and sniggered...man..
so besides that escapade, i have been too busy to do do a post in LJ..but i been readin loads of them..sorry no time for comments as well..exams begin on wednesday and last one is on 14...i'll make a post then..L8ERZ!
Dec. 5th, 2005 @ 05:09 pm
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I decided to stay in sch yesterday n came back home in da mornin on da 2nd bus..was freeeeezing...n then white fluffy things fell from da sky..SNOW!ARGH!i slept n awoke to find that outside ma window, things were shrouded in white..n then i went to sch, n i juz got out of it to come home...was rainin like cats n dogs..not forgettin the wind..ARGH! I hate da current conditions...
Nov. 15th, 2005 @ 10:52 pm
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| » Green Street Hooligans |
awesome movie that reflects the soccor or ahem..football culture of europe to a certain extent..and i juz love claire Forlani(http://movies.yahoo.com/shop?d=hc&id=1800019152&cf=gen&intl=us)...i seriously do..eversice seeing her in Meet Joe Black...hmm...
Oct. 28th, 2005 @ 09:55 pm
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So i haven't posted any of my works in ages..hmm..i thot i'd post one up today juz for fun..
There she goes again, running out the door Going as fast as she can, leaving pearls of tears on the floor
And some nights she cries wiping those tears from her weary eyes She wishes things hadn't had to be that way Hopes things're gonna change some day
And she sends a prayer out everynight prayer for things to be alright If only someone could her her screams In an envelope sealed with shattered dreams
Bridge: She's been through it before, But now she noes she wants it for sure She's gonna leave the pain behind, shes gonna..
Chorus: unfold her wings and fly like an angel in the midnight sky In the darkness of the night She's gonna leave it all behind The stars are gonna guide her home To the place where she knows she belongs
There're days she wakes up cold nauseated by the things she's been told She knows what she hears is true But thats just it..this is just you
You take what you've been given and turn your life around Thats just the way it is You gotta be lost, you gotta be found
Bridge: Just a painful mistake, now she's left in its wake She's gonna leave it all, she's gonna..
Chorus..
There she goes again, running out the door Going as fast as she can, leaving pearls of tears on the floor
Oct. 15th, 2005 @ 12:02 pm
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So i made momo(actually my housemates, linda and me)...wads momo u're askin? Basically its juz dumplings..dough sheets filled with meat and then wrapped up and steamed...man was it good..haven't had that in a loooong time...O n linda dropped by to drop us some flowers since its thanksgiving tmr(rite now actually..one hour into thanksgiving)...THANKS LINDA!! We went to watch wallace and gromit as well..was it funny? U BET! But i kinda fell asleep a lil here n there so i can't say but those times i was awake, i did like wad i see..lol..well..thats some good news i've been meanin to report in some time now..nites!
HAPPY THANKSGIVING AND DASHAIN TO ONE AND ALL!!
Rah
Oct. 10th, 2005 @ 01:03 am
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| Your Pimp Name Is... |  Big Playah Pump |
Oct. 9th, 2005 @ 12:52 am
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